I've never given much credit to the idea of psychological disorders. When I was a teenager, I had to take Prozac which I didn't want to do and even while I was taking it, felt little or no change in my behavior. In fact I stopped taking it for several months and nobody was the wiser.
But I finally went to the doctor for the first time in about 10 years and explained my attention problems. I had taken several self exams which have all recommended that I talk to my doctor about ADHD and so I figured I should probably do that. So now I'm on medication for it and in 2 to 4 weeks, hopefully I will start to see some changes.
Things are really bad now. I “forget” names minutes after hearing them. I miss key details in meetings and phone calls unless I record them and play them back 5 times. I also can't focus on any particular task, no matter how important it may be. It's been a huge time waste for me. In fact, in 2006 I've hardly accomplished anything “cool” at all. Most of my work has been on TEO 3 which is months overdue and most of my income has come from TEO 2 which is fortunately still selling.
But an even bigger problem is the health risks I'm taking trying to combat it. If I get nothing done during the day, but know that I need to have tasks x, y, and z done by tomorrow, I wind up taking in alot of caffeine and sometimes even ephedra-based supplements as a substitute for sleep so that I can stay up all night making up the time. I tend to work much better at night because there are fewer distractions. But the caffeine and ephedra are not good for me and lately I've been experiencing frequent chest discomfort whenever I pull one of these “all nighters“.
So anyway this is just a personal rant about myself. I'm going to put some faith in modern medicine for a change and hopefully I'll see that light at the end of the tunnel. I can't count on the medicine entirely though so I'm going to try to implement some task management methods too. I can't wait to unlock my potential once again.